You know what inspires you, and what excites you.
You know what you need to do and what's calling out to you.
Except, there's this voice we all have in our minds that tell us "agh I can't be bothered to do that."
I have that voice, too. I have things that are calling me; that are asking for my attention, yet "I just can't be bothered to take action on it."
How long did that very voice tell me that morning yoga was not a good idea?
It didn't want me to bother. "Agh a 6am yoga class.... I can't be bothered for that."
But since joining the yoga studio and actually going; it's been just what I needed.
How 'can't be bothered' did that voice make me feel about starting my blog?
But upon starting it, I've been reminded how much I love writing and sharing.
Every 'I can't be bothered' is a 'THIS IS WHERE YOU ARE NEEDED' statement.
I knew there was a nice 5km walk along the river that I could do on my way to work; but I couldn't be bothered.
But, now that I've done it a few times, it's the best bloody thing that's happened for my wellbeing.
And come to think of it, how much was meditation a huge "agh no, that sounds way too hard." But now, it's just a part of my day, and just 'something I do, because I 'became bothered' and I sat down to do it, despite the "i can't be botheredness."
"I can't be bothered to make a plan for XYZ"
"I can't be bothered to make a home cooked meal and eat well."
"I want to join the pilates studio, but i can't be bothered."
Your "I can't be bothered" statements, are really, your "this is where life is calling me to be" statements.
But we all get the choice whether to answer the call.
At the start of the year, I made it one of my goals to volunteer.
For most of the year, I couldn't be bothered to do the admin associated with it. I couldn't be bothered to go to the website, fill out the forms, do the police checks and to do the interviewing and induction process.
But, sometime in September, I became bothered, and I just did it.
And now, I have finished all of the admin, plus my two inductions at my chosen organisation and am about to actually volunteer.
Life knew where I was needed. It called me, but the whole process to pursue it felt so 'ugh really I can't be bothered with that'- but now that I have pushed past it, it's already one of the best things I've ever done. I already feel the rewards, just from doing the inductions.
I already feel at home.
And that's how we know that we are somewhere worthwhile; we feel at home there.
Life calls us.
It pulls us, everyday.
What inspires you, is what you're being called towards.
You just... can't be bothered to go there. But make no mistake, it's where you are most needed.
There is a difference between not being bothered to do something vs flat out, not being interested in doing it.
If you can't be bothered to join the yoga studio, chances are, you actually know it's calling you.
However, if you aren't interested in trying out boxing, life probably isn't asking you to.
If you're finding it hard to muster up the motivation to do something, it's likely to be the very thing that life is begging you to do.
And when you do become motivated and start, I promise, it'll instantly feel like 'home.'